I can bear it all except the thought of seeing his mother. What do I say?
I'm fine, I'm normal. I shouldn't be. I should be devastated. How can I be normal and fine after this?
His sister will take it hard. She's a strong person, but very emotional; empathetic. She's a wreck, I'm sure.
And his wife. She has to stay calm, she can't get overly emotional, the unborn child depends on her.

My family has walked over a broken mirror, in front of a black cat, underneath a ladder, with an open umbrella, indoors, on the thirteenth day of the month. What kind of family doesn't measure time by 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002; but by the year who died? Perry Westbrook, Sir Dick New, Margaret New, and now Chris Burton.

Fine was the wrong word. I don't feel fine, I just make myself feel fine. I'm truely all numb. A little shocked, a little scared, a little sad. But really only numb.
I really wish that I had been a little bit older so that I could have gotten to know him better. He was always just one of my older cousins. By the time I can clearly remeber, he was out of High School and only around once in a while. We never really connected until the last couple of years once I was out of High School.

Would you know my name if I saw you in Heaven?
Would you feel the same if I saw you in Heaven?
I must be strong and carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong here in Heaven ......

Would you hold my hand if I saw you in Heaven?
Would you help me stand if I saw you in Heaven?
I'll find my way, through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay here in Heaven .....

Time can bring you down, time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart, have you begging .... please ...

Beyond the door, there's peace I'm sure.
And I know there'll be no more tears in Heaven .......

Would you know my name if I saw you in Heaven?
Would you feel the same if I saw you in Heaven?
I must be strong and carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong here in Heaven .......
-Eric Clapton

Good Bye, Chris. The demons are gone. Go with the peace you gave yourself.