I wish that I felt. I have so many friends who feel things so deeply. Most of their emotion is sad and full of meloncholoy undertones, but still, it almost seems that my own lack of emotion is even more desperate. The thing is, that every time I do begin to let emotion take me over (usually for the worse) I have people tell me that they have come to rely on my strength. Screw that. I am all too happy to be a pillar for anyone who needs it, but being told that I have to hide my own responses to things is being taken advantage of. But on the other hand, that same rocky facade is my salvation when I need it. I have never cried at a funeral, not because I do not feel saddness, but because if I let it under me at all, then I lose all manner of control. And I think that that is one of my greatest phobias.

Doin' Watchdawgs tonight. All who are in Athens should sign up. It's an awesome service and incredible fun.