A slap in the face. Maybe to wake me up... but it stings.
I have a host of questions and none of the answers. My mind is racing trying to find answers and I only go in circles. So hard.
Why would that be said? I can think of any number of reasons; from the unwitting, to saying it out of kindness, out of malice... honesty, perhaps. Some combination there-of. I want to know what she thinks, how she feels. I want to know so that I can gauge my own response.

It sounded sincere. It even sounded kind, if that adjective applys. But I am plauged by doubt. And it isn't that I don't trust her.... I do; completely. But this almost seems to come as a realization of some of my fears... and that scares me. I get such mixed signals.... sometimes I feel so certain that all of my emotion is reciprocated.... but then the off-handed comment will hurt. and with that all of my questions return.

I guess the advise I gave Jon and Kasha comes back to me.... sit down, in person, and tell her all of this.
I guess I'm just scared.